When you're down to nothing...

God is up to something. 

That is what it on repeat in my head today. It has been one of those emotionally draining, hide under the covers type of day, and I am just trying to stay positive. Every once in awhile, life throws you one of those ridiculous curve balls that throws your whole world off balance, shakes your faith, and leaves you frustrated to the point of tears, and you just have to take a deep breath, and take baby steps.

I'm not going to go into details about it, but I just needed to rant and rave a little bit. My sweet husband is quite torn up about the situation, and I just keep telling him that things happen, and we can't let it tear us down. It doesn't matter what happened, but it does matter how we stay strong, and work together, and get through it. We'll look back on this crazy year and laugh.

Luckily for us, we have these blessing in our lives that keep us smiling, even when we want to cry. The first, our support system-- yes, Thunder Buddy, that means you too. I don't know where we would be if C. & J. didn't keep giving us positive feedback and unconditional love throughout all of this, even when they are having their own struggles. My mother has been incredible, always willing to lend an ear, and rant about the people I rant about. Mine, and Kaleb's best friends, always willing to just say, "Oh no, that sucks." and let us talk their ear off, or just ignore things for awhile and just pretend we're all doing okay.

And the second, our sweet baby boy. Grae has a way of making us laugh no matter what. Today, I think he could sense that we were frustrated and feeling down, and Kaleb started pushing on my tummy, asking him to move, and kick for him. Graeson responded like a champ and started kicking Kaleb (probably out of annoyance, really) and making Kaleb "chase" him around my tummy. Kaleb would start pushing on one area of my tummy where Grae was, and he would move away from him, and this kept going until he seemed to get annoyed and would kick hard at Daddy. Hahah, I told Kaleb that Grae would remember that and probably hurl all over him whenever he could.

God has really blessed me with all these amazing people, a healthy pregnancy, and a little more sanity than I am used too. I know if I focus on all the good in my life, the crazy won't be as bad as it seems. This is just a little bump in the road, and I have to believe that it will be worth it in the end.


I hope everyone has a good week, and don't forget to focus on the good things, and not to overlook the small ones.

xo.