When you're down to nothing...

God is up to something. 

That is what it on repeat in my head today. It has been one of those emotionally draining, hide under the covers type of day, and I am just trying to stay positive. Every once in awhile, life throws you one of those ridiculous curve balls that throws your whole world off balance, shakes your faith, and leaves you frustrated to the point of tears, and you just have to take a deep breath, and take baby steps.

I'm not going to go into details about it, but I just needed to rant and rave a little bit. My sweet husband is quite torn up about the situation, and I just keep telling him that things happen, and we can't let it tear us down. It doesn't matter what happened, but it does matter how we stay strong, and work together, and get through it. We'll look back on this crazy year and laugh.

Luckily for us, we have these blessing in our lives that keep us smiling, even when we want to cry. The first, our support system-- yes, Thunder Buddy, that means you too. I don't know where we would be if C. & J. didn't keep giving us positive feedback and unconditional love throughout all of this, even when they are having their own struggles. My mother has been incredible, always willing to lend an ear, and rant about the people I rant about. Mine, and Kaleb's best friends, always willing to just say, "Oh no, that sucks." and let us talk their ear off, or just ignore things for awhile and just pretend we're all doing okay.

And the second, our sweet baby boy. Grae has a way of making us laugh no matter what. Today, I think he could sense that we were frustrated and feeling down, and Kaleb started pushing on my tummy, asking him to move, and kick for him. Graeson responded like a champ and started kicking Kaleb (probably out of annoyance, really) and making Kaleb "chase" him around my tummy. Kaleb would start pushing on one area of my tummy where Grae was, and he would move away from him, and this kept going until he seemed to get annoyed and would kick hard at Daddy. Hahah, I told Kaleb that Grae would remember that and probably hurl all over him whenever he could.

God has really blessed me with all these amazing people, a healthy pregnancy, and a little more sanity than I am used too. I know if I focus on all the good in my life, the crazy won't be as bad as it seems. This is just a little bump in the road, and I have to believe that it will be worth it in the end.


I hope everyone has a good week, and don't forget to focus on the good things, and not to overlook the small ones.

xo.

e i g h t y n i n e d a y s

Does this pregnancy make me look fat? 

Hahah, that's the question that I keep asking Kaleb. His response? "No. You look babyful." Kaleb is so excited about my ever growing bump, he shows it off to all of his friends, and on occasion, his family. We are almost to the final stretch--

THIRD TRIMESTER! 

Now is the time to start getting all of the final things put together-- birthing plans, baby bedding, hospital bag,  baby shower invites, stocking up on diapers and wipes, birthing and breastfeeding classes, budget plans-- all of it. It is crazy to think that he will be here so soon! 

The best part is, everything is starting to fall into place. Kaleb starts his new job on Monday, we've picked an apartment (we just need to do all the paperwork& such in about a month, when we'll have money), and then we can get all settled in. 

I know that none of this would be possible without our amazing support system; Grae is going to have so much love in his life, it just makes my heart swell. He is coming into such a great family, and I can't wait for everyone to meet him. 

WHAT GRAE IS UP TOO

(at 27 weeks)

This week, BabyG is almost 2 pounds (the size of an average cauliflower) and about 14.5 inches long, when his legs are extended. He can open and close his eyes, and may respond to the light that filters through the womb! His lungs are still developing, which has brought on a LOT of those sweet baby hiccups. His brain is developing like crazy, and it is highly active now. 

Graeson is usually awake and kicking when I'm first up in the morning, and settles down  the majority of the afternoon. By the time I lay down for bed, baby is up and ready to play! 

HOW I'M FEELING

My heartburn is in full swing lately, mostly in the evening. My back is starting to kill me, and I've begun to feel a few Braxton Hicks contractions. I'm starting to think more and more about the future, down to the way I want our apartment to be set up, though I'm pretty sure it's not full blown nesting. 

My appetite is CRAZY. I can be starving, eat an awesome meal, and an hour or two later, I'm starving again. 

I'm drinking milk like it's going out of style, and I can't get enough Oreo's! Don't even worry that I would KILL for some eggnog! 

WHAT I'M THINKING

I was so ready to be done with the pregnancy, but now that it's cooling down, it's not so bad! I do want to meet BabyG so so bad, but I know we still have quite a bit of getting ready to do! So I'm going to continue to enjoy the kicks, rolls, punches and hiccups while we get everything ready for him!

xo--E. Hunter