Tuesday, October 1, 2013

being gooey..

So, I try not to get really mushy about my relationship {to spare all you squeamish folk} but lately I've been thinking about how blessed I am to have Kaleb in my life.

I met my husband a little over four years ago during our tech class; a class I only took to fill up my schedule. {this must have been destiny because I would have failed that class if it hadn't been for Kaleb} I had noticed him before, staring at me, but he never talked to me. One day, he was at the printer next to my computer&' I turned around&' told him that I liked his shirt. {it was orange, my favorite color at the time, and to this day, he still swears that it was a pick up line} He turned about 40 shades of red, mumbled out a thank you&' walked away. But I was not content. If this boy was going to make goo goo eyes at me, I was going to at least make him talk to me. So during the presentation we had during class that day, I demanded he sit next to me. {for those of you that know Kaleb, you know how painstaking this was. for those of you that don't, Kaleb is my polar opposite. He's really shy&' sticks to what he knows. I.e-- not me.} After a little bit of awkward tension, I finally got Kaleb to relax and start talking with me. As class was ending, I gave Kaleb an opening to ask for my number. Which he missed. For 10 minutes. When it finally hit him, he asked&' of course, I gave it to him.

From then on, we texted each other all day&' late into the night. We just had a natural way with each other, despite how different we were from one another. He eventually asked me to his prom {a WEEK before prom, mind you} &' that's when we made it official. A month later, we were officially over. {he kind of drove me crazy..} Soon I graduated {oh yeah, I forgot to tell you, I'm a puma-- like a cougar, but younger. Kaleb is younger than me by a little over a year.} &' we went on our separate ways. Kaleb had a year left of school&' I had three to figure myself out.








We didn't interact much those three years. I had a baby with a man who didn't care, my sister adopted him {for which I am so blessed} got engaged, broke the engagement off, got into another really bad relationship&' lost myself. One day while on Facebook, Kaleb's name was in the chat log&' the little voice in my head started whispering, "Message him." So...I did. We caught up, agreed to meet up&' hang out. We talked about everything that had happened over the years, laughed about old memories.
{back story, when I started talking to Kaleb again, I had decided to date around&' not get in a committed relationship.} The next thing I know, I'm spending all my free time with Kaleb, going on dates, late night drives, visiting him at work. He just made me light up, even though I didn't want to admit it.

Over lunch with a girlfriend, we were talking about Kaleb. She looked me square in the eyes&' said, "Mary, you obviously care about him. You light up every time you talk about him, and he's all you talk about. Plus, you're not really dating around anymore-- you're just dating him." I laughed it off, but her words stayed with me, bouncing around in my head like spastic ping pong balls.

Later that same evening, Kaleb&' I were texting&' he let it slip that he was still in love with me, even three years later. He had watched my life fall apart, seen me crazy&' he still loved me all the same. He said he knew we belonged together, so he had no choice but to wait for me...

Every sign in my life, pointed to Kaleb. He was my soulmate.

So I took a leap of faith&' Kaleb&' I discussed making it official. By far one of the best decisions of my life. Next thing I know, we move to Logan together, discuss getting married&' living happily ever after. And that's basically how it happened. Then we had a baby on the way. And in the blink of an eye, my future was right in front of me. We got married on a quiet July evening, before Graeson got here {I wanted to be married before he came}.

Kaleb&' I have definitely had our ups&' downs and the path we've traveled has not been the smoothest. However, despite the ups&' downs, we fight through it&' make it work.

I love Kaleb with all of my being. No one makes me laugh the same way he does, pushes me towards my goals, listens to my dreams like he does. I adore him more than I ever thought possible, and I love him even more because of how he loves our son. He is the smartest, most caring, most sarcastic man I have ever met&' sometimes, he drives me crazy. But I can't imagine spending a second without him. I love him with everything I have.

I love his eyes, especially the way they squint up when he laughs, and his laugh makes me melt. I love his cheesy jokes, even though I don't show it all the time. I love how proud he is to be a father&' I love the way he lights up when he sees Grae.

I am so blessed to have Kaleb in my life&' I am so grateful he chose me to spend the rest of his life with.

I love you so much, baby. Thank you for being with me forever plus a day.

xo